Little man has been sleeping through the night since he was 2 months old. He even went on a 14 hour sleeping streak for a good couple of weeks. And yet I lay awake, tossing and turning for the better part of the nocturnal hours. I am sure that this has contributed to my state of "funk". This state that I just can't seem to shake.
Today I was slapped in the face with the issue of forgiveness. I have always been the person that sees the best in people. The girl that wants to believe that there is good in every body. I have always given endless chances for people to redeem themselves. But lately I am just spent. I have seen entirely too many dissapointnements lately and I can not help but wonder how many times are you supposed to forgive someone before they become someone you just don't keep in your life.
I hate how synical and dissapointed I have become. I don't want to raise my child in an environment that is filled with these kind of people. And yet, I know that as a Christian we are required to love and forgive. I guess my question is this . . . when do you purge people from your life ??? what offenses are forgiveable and what are inexcusable??
I am grateful that my heavenly father has forgiven me each and every time I have asked. I thank God that HE has never given up on me. Is this reason enough to offer endless chances for people to be in your life? Or do you realize that your family is what you make sometimes and just realize that some people should not be in your life?Where do you draw the line between surrounding yourself with people that will encourage and uplift you . . .and offering forgiveness and second chances.
Adios Mis Amigos,